9

Her girl friends, whom I had looked forward to meet, proved on the whole disappointing. There was Opal Something, and Linda Hall, and Avis Chapman, and Eva Rosen, and Mona Dahl (save one, all these names are approximations, of course). Opal was a bashful, formless, bespectacled, bepimpled creature who doted on Dolly, who bullied her. With Linda Hall the school tennis champion, Dolly played singles at least twice a week: I suspect Linda was a true nymphet, but for some unknown reason she did not come – was perhaps not allowed to come – to our house; so I recall her only as a flash of natural sunshine on an indoor court. Of the rest, none had any claims to nymphetry except Eva Rosen. Avis was a plump lateral child with hairy legs, while Mona, though handsome in a coarse sensual way and only a year older than my aging mistress, had obviously long ceased to be a nymphet, if she ever had been one. Eva Rosen, a displaced little person from France, was on the other hand a good example of a not strikingly beautiful child revealing to the perspicacious amateur some of the basic elements of nymphet charm, such as a perfect pubescent figure and lingering eyes and high cheekbones. Her glossy copper hair had Lolita’s silkiness, and the features of her delicate milky-white face with pink lips and silverfish eyelashes were less foxy than those of her likes – the great clan of intra-racial redheads; nor did she sport their green uniform but wore, as I remember her, a lot of black or cherry dark – a very smart black pullover, for instance, and high-heeled black shoes, and garnet-red fingernail polish. I spoke French to her (much to Lo’s disgust). The child’s tonalities were still admirably pure, but for school words and play words she resorted to current American and then a slight Brooklyn accent would crop up in her speech, which was amusing in a little Parisian who went to a select New England school with phoney British aspirations. Unfortunately, despite ‘that French kid’s uncle’ being ‘a millionaire’, Lo dropped Eva for some reason before I had had time to enjoy in my modest way her fragrant presence in the Humbert open house. The reader knows what importance I attached to having a bevy of page girls, consolation prize nymphets, around my Lolita. For a while, I endeavoured to interest my senses in Mona Dahl who was a good deal around, especially during the spring term when Lo and she got so enthusiastic about dramatics. I have often wondered what secrets outrageously treacherous Dolores Haze had imparted to Mona while blurting out to me by urgent and well-paid request various really incredible details concerning an affair that Mona had had with a marine at the seaside. It was characteristic of Lo that she chose for her closest chum that elegant, cold, lascivious, experienced young female whom I once heard (misheard, Lo swore) cheerfully say in the hallway to Lo – who had remarked that her (Lo’s) sweater was of virgin wool: ‘The only thing about you that is, kiddo…’ She had a curiously husky voice, artificially waved dull dark hair, earrings, amber-brown prominent eyes and luscious lips. Lo said teachers had remonstrated with her on her loading herself with so much costume jewellery. Her hands trembled. She was burdened with a 150 IQ. And I also knew she had a tremendous chocolate-brown mole on her womanish back which I inspected the night Lo and she had worn low-cut pastel-coloured, vaporous dresses for a dance at the Butler Academy.

I am anticipating a little, but I cannot help running my memory all over the keyboard of that school year. In meeting my attempts to find out what kind of boys Lo knew, Miss Dahl was elegantly evasive. Lo who had gone to play tennis at Linda’s country club had telephoned she might be a full half hour late, and so, would I entertain Mona who was coming to practise with her a scene from The Taming of the Shrew. Using all the modulations, all the allure of manner and voice she was capable of and staring at me with perhaps – could I be mistaken? – a faint gleam of crystalline irony, beautiful Mona replied: ‘Well, sir, the fact is Dolly is not much concerned with mere boys. Fact is, we are rivals. She and I have a crush on the Reverend Rigger.’ (This was a joke – I have already mentioned that gloomy giant of a man, with the jaw of a horse: he was to bore me to near murder with his impressions of Switzerland at a tea party for parents that I am unable to place correctly in terms of time.)

How had the ball been? Oh, it had been a riot. A what? A panic. Terrific, in a word. Had Lo danced a lot? Oh, not a frightful lot, just as much as she could stand. What did she, languorous Mona, think of Lo? Sir? Did she think Lo was doing well at school? Gosh, she certainly was quite a kid. But her general behaviour was – ? Oh, she was a swell kid. But still? ‘Oh, she’s a doll,’ concluded Mona, and sighed abruptly, and picked up a book that happened to lie at hand, and with a change of expression, falsely furrowing her brow, inquired: ‘Do tell me about Ball Zack, sir. Is he really that good?’ She moved up so close to my chair that I made out through lotions and creams her uninteresting skin scent. A sudden odd thought stabbed me: was my Lo playing the pimp? If so, she had found the wrong substitute. Avoiding Mona’s cool gaze, I talked literature for a minute. Then Dolly arrived – and slit her pale eyes at us. I left the two friends to their own devices. One of the latticed squares in a small cobwebby casement window at the turn of the staircase was glazed with ruby, and that raw wound among the unstained rectangles and its asymmetrical position – a knight’s move from the top – always strangely disturbed me.

10

Sometimes… Come on, how often exactly, Bert? Can you recall four, five, more such occasions? Or would no human heart have survived two or three? Sometimes (I have nothing to say in reply to your question), while Lolita would be haphazardly preparing her homework, sucking a pencil, lolling sideways in an easy chair with both legs over its arm, I would shed all my pedagogic restraint, dismiss all our quarrels, forget all my masculine pride – and literally crawl on my knees to your chair, my Lolita! You would give me one look – a grey furry question mark of a look: ‘Oh no, not again’ (incredulity, exasperation); for you never deigned to believe that I could, without any specific designs, ever crave to bury my face in your plaid skirt, my darling! The fragility of those bare arms of yours – how I longed to enfold them, all your four limpid lovely limbs, a folded colt, and take your head between my unworthy hands, and pull the temple-skin back on both sides, and kiss your chinesed eyes, and – ‘Pulease, leave me alone, will you’, you would say, ‘for Christ’s sake leave me alone’. And I would get up from the floor while you looked on, your face deliberately twitching in imitation of my tic nerveux. But never mind, never mind, I am only a brute, never mind, let us go on with my miserable story.

11

One Monday forenoon, in December I think, Pratt asked me to come over for a talk. Dolly’s last report had been poor, I knew. But instead of contenting myself with some such plausible explanation of this summons, I imagined all sorts of horrors, and had to fortify myself with a pint of my ‘pin’ before I could face the interview. Slowly, all Adam’s apple and heart, I went up the steps of the scaffold.

A huge woman, grey-haired, frowsy, with a broad flat nose and small eyes behind black-rimmed glasses – ‘Sit down,’ she said, pointing to an informal and humiliating hassock, while she perched with ponderous spryness on the arm of an oak chair. For a moment or two, she peered at me with smiling curiosity. She had done it at our first meeting, I recalled, but I could afford then to scowl back. Her eye left me. She lapsed into thought – probably assumed. Making up her mind she rubbed, fold on fold, her dark grey flannel skirt at the knee, dispelling a trace of chalk or something. Then she said, still rubbing, not looking up:

‘Let me ask a blunt question, Mr. Haze. You are an old-fashioned Continental father, aren’t you?’

‘Why, no,’ I said, ‘conservative, perhaps, but not what you would call old-fashioned.’

She sighed, frowned, then clapped her big plump hands together in a let’s-get-down-to-business manner, and again fixed her beady eyes upon me.

‘Dolly Haze,’ she said, ‘is a lovely child, but the onset of sexual maturing seems to give her trouble.’

I bowed slightly. What else could I do?

‘She is still shuttling,’ said Miss Pratt, showing how with her liver-spotted hands, ‘between the anal and genital zones of development. Basically she is a lovely – ’

‘I beg your pardon,’ I said, ‘what zones?’

‘That’s the old-fashioned European in you!’ cried Pratt delivering a slight tap on my wrist watch and suddenly disclosing her dentures. ‘All I mean is that biologic and psychologic drives – do you smoke? – are not fused in Dolly, do not fall so to speak into a – into a rounded pattern.’ Her hands held for a moment an invisible melon.

‘She is attractive, bright though careless’ (breathing heavily, without leaving her perch, the woman took time out to look at the lovely child’s report sheet on the desk at her right). ‘Her marks are getting worse and worse. Now I wonder, Mr. Haze – ’

Again the false meditation.

‘Well,’ she went on with zest, ‘as for me, I do smoke, and, as dear Dr. Pierce used to say: I’m not proud of it but I jeest love it.’ She lit up and the smoke she exhaled from her nostrils was like a pair of tusks.

‘Let me give you a few details, it won’t take a moment. Now let me see [rummaging among her papers]. She is defiant toward Miss Redcock and impossibly rude to Miss Cormorant. Now here is one of our special research reports: Enjoys singing with group in class though mind seems to wander. Crosses her knees and wags left leg to rhythm. Type of by-words: a two-hundred-forty-two word area of the commonest pubescent slang fenced in by a number of obviously European polysyllabics. Sighs a good deal in class. Let me see. Yes. Now comes the last week in November. Sighs a good deal in class. Chews gum vehemently. Does not bite her nails though, if she did, this would conform better to her general pattern – scientifically speaking, of course. Menstruation, according to the subject, well established. Belongs at present to no church organization. By the way, Mr. Haze, her mother was – ? Oh, I see. And you are – ? Nobody’s business is, I suppose, God’s business. Something else we wanted to know. She has no regular home duties, I understand. Making a princess of your Dolly, Mr. Haze, eh? Well, what else have we got here? Handles books gracefully. Voice pleasant. Giggles rather often. A little dreamy. Has private jokes of her own, transposing for instance the first letters of some of her teachers’ names. Hair light and dark brown, lustrous – well [laughing] you are aware of that, I suppose. Nose unobstructed, feet high-arched, eyes – let me see, I had here somewhere a still more recent report. Aha, here we are. Miss Gold says Dolly’s tennis form is excellent to superb, even better than Linda Hall’s, but concentration and point-accumulation are just ‘poor to fair’. Miss Cormorant cannot decide whether Dolly has exceptional emotional control or none at all. Miss Horn reports she – I mean, Dolly – cannot verbalize her emotions, while according to Miss Cole, Dolly’s metabolic efficiency is superfine. Miss Molar thinks Dolly is myopic and should see a good ophthalmologist, but Miss Redcock insists that the girl simulates eye-strain to get away with scholastic incompetence. And to conclude, Mr. Haze, our researchers are wondering about something really crucial. Now I want to ask you something. I want to know if your poor wife, or yourself, or anyone else in the family – I understand she has several aunts and a maternal grandfather in California? – oh, had! – I’m sorry – well, we all wonder if anybody in the family has instructed Dolly in the process of mammalian reproduction. The general impression is that fifteen-year-old Dolly remains morbidly uninterested in sexual matters, or, to be exact, represses her curiosity in order to save her ignorance and self-dignity. All right – fourteen. You see, Mr. Haze, Beardsley School does not believe in bees and blossoms, and storks and love birds, but it does believe very strongly in preparing its students for mutually satisfactory mating and succesful child rearing. We feel Dolly could make excellent progress if only she would put her mind to her work. Miss Cormorant’s report is significant in that respect. Dolly is inclined to be, mildly speaking, impudent. But all feel that, primo, you should have your family doctor tell her the facts of life and, secundo, that you allow her to enjoy the company of her schoolmates’ brothers at the Junior Club or in Dr. Rigger’s organization, or in the lovely homes of our parents.’

‘She may meet boys at her own lovely home,’ I said.

‘I hope she will,’ said Pratt buoyantly. ‘When we questioned her about her troubles, Dolly refused to discuss the home situation, but we have spoken to some of her friends and really – well, for example, we insist you un-veto her non-participation in the dramatic group. You just must allow her to take part in The Hunted Enchanters. She was such a perfect little nymph in the try-out, and sometime in spring the author will stay for a few days at Beardsley College and may attend a rehearsal or two in our new auditorium. I mean it is all part of the fun of being young and alive and beautiful. You must understand – ’

‘I always thought of myself,’ I said, ‘as a very understanding father.’

‘Oh no doubt, no doubt, but Miss Cormorant thinks, and I am inclined to agree with her, that Dolly is obsessed by sexual thoughts for which she finds no outlet, and will tease and martyrize other girls, or even our younger instructors because they do have innocent dates with boys.’

Shrugged my shoulders. A shabby émigré.

‘Let us put our two heads together, Mr. Haze. What on earth is wrong with that child?’

‘She seems quite normal and happy to me,’ I said (disaster coming at last? was I found out? had they got some hypnotist?).

‘What worries me,’ said Miss Pratt looking at her watch and starting to go over the whole subject again, ‘is that both teachers and schoolmates find Dolly antagonistic, dissatisfied, cagey – and everybody wonders why you are so firmly opposed to all the natural recreations of a normal child.’

‘Do you mean sex play?’ I asked jauntily, in despair, a cornered old rat.

‘Well, I certainly welcome this civilized terminology,’ said Pratt with a grin. ‘But this is not quite the point. Under the auspices of Beardsley School, dramatics, dances and other natural activities are not technically sex play, though girls do meet boys, if that is what you object to.’

‘All right,’ I said, my hassock exhaling a weary sigh. ‘You win. She can take part in that play. Provided male parts are taken by female parts.’

‘I am always fascinated,’ said Pratt, ‘by the admirable way foreigners – or at least naturalized Americans – use our rich language. I’m sure Miss Gold, who conducts the play group, will be overjoyed. I notice she is one of the few teachers that seem to like – I mean who seem to find Dolly manageable. This takes care of general topics, I guess; now comes a special matter. We are in trouble again.’

Pratt paused truculently, then rubbed her index finger under her nostrils with such vigour that her nose performed a kind of war dance.

‘I’m a frank person,’ she said, ‘but conventions are conventions, and I find it difficult… Let me put it this way… The Walkers, who live in what we call around here the Duke’s Manor, you know the great grey house on the hill – they send their two girls to our school, and we have the niece of President Moore with us, a really gracious child, not to speak of a number of other prominent children. Well, under the circumstances, it is rather a jolt when Dolly, who looks like a little lady, uses words which you as a foreigner probably simply do not know or do not understand. Perhaps it might be better – Would you like me to have Dolly come up here right away to discuss things? No? You see – oh well, let’s have it out. Dolly has written a most obscene four-letter word which our Dr. Cutler tells me is low-Mexican for urinal with her lipstick on some health pamphlets which Miss Redcock, who is getting married in June, distributed among the girls, and we thought she should stay after hours – another half hour at least. But if you like – ’

‘No,’ I said, ‘I don’t want to interfere with rules. I shall talk to her later. I shall thrash it out.’

‘Do,’ said the woman rising from her chair arm. ‘And perhaps we can get together again soon, and if things do not improve we might have Dr. Cutler analyse her.’

Should I marry Pratt and strangle her?

‘…and perhaps your family doctor might like to examine her physically – just a routine check-up. She is in Mushroom – the last classroom along that passage.’

Beardsley School, it may be explained, copied a famous girls’ school in England by having ‘traditional’ nicknames for its various classrooms: Mushroom, Room-In 8, B-room, Room-BA and so on. Mushroom was smelly, with a sepia print of Reynolds’ ‘Age of Innocence’ above the chalkboard, and several rows of clumsy-looking pupil desks. At one of these, my Lolita was reading the chapter on ‘Dialogue’ in Baker’s Dramatic Technique, and all was very quiet, and there was another girl with a very naked, porcelain-white neck and wonderful platinum hair, who sat in front reading too, absolutely lost to the world and interminably winding a soft curl around one finger, and I sat beside Dolly just behind that neck and that hair, and unbuttoned my overcoat and for sixty-five cents plus the permission to participate in the school play, had Dolly put her inky, chalky, red-knuckled hand under the desk. Oh, stupid and reckless of me, no doubt, but after the torture I had been subjected to, I simply had to take advantage of a combination that I knew would never occur again.